Friday, August 14, 2009

I can't cut down calories

I tried to do 1000-1500 calories the last two days and I exercised by going for an hours walk each day but I still ended up binging which took it up to 3000 calories each day. I really hated myself for it. The guilty feeling came over me when I had salad for dinner from a full stomach and I lost control. I wish I didn't do this. It is the cause of all my hopelessness in weight loss. Also when I eat - even until I am full, I find myself hungry again in an hour with the same feeling empty stomach feeling, does anyone else have that?
In the last month I have put on about 10 pounds from eating normally. I am 198lbs. I wish I could eat healthy and people who keep telling me to obviously don't have a difficult relationship with food, they really should not assume everyone has the same. I'm in dire need of inspiration and advice which isn't the same typical stuff.