Tuesday, July 14, 2009


As disgusting as this looks I have to admit I'm not far off, if you can imagine 187 pounds on a 5'8'' frame its not pretty.

I really need to get my life together and losing weight is a big part of it. If I could just get rid of 20 pounds asap it would make a world of difference.

I've lost it before I used to be 217 pounds 4 years ago but I've taken so long to lose it like 5 pounds at a time that no one ever noticed except for a couple of friends I met up with after not seeing them for a year.

I don't even know why I binge it doesn't even feel good anymore. I have to say starving is feels way better.

Starting from this second I am going to fast until Saturday night -where I'll take a break for a party with alcohol. Then I will fast again until Tuesday. It will be easy too, my parents are away so they won't be able to tempt me with food. And I need money so I'm not going to waste it on takeaway and save what they give me.